Depression Sucks...

Hello everyone!

Years ago, when I started dealing with my co-dependency issue, it was suggested I went to a psychiatrist to prescribe me happy pills. I felt insulted and dealt with my issue only going to therapy. I am having second thoughts about those happy pills... What if I do need them? What if I too, suffer from manic depression?

Very dark thoughts come to mind and the more I think about it, the more I realize: I have felt this before. I have a heaviness in my chest and do not want to see or talk to anyone. I have no desire of achieving anything... I am truly depressed.

According to WebMD, depression in women "is a serious and pervasive mood disorder. It causes feelings of sadness, hopelessness, helplessness, and worthlessness. Depression can be mild to moderate with symptoms of apathy, little appetite, difficulty sleeping, low self-esteem, and low-grade fatigue. Or it can be more severe."
It goes on to explain the symptoms:

• Persistent sad, anxious, or "empty" mood
• Loss of interest or pleasure in activities, including sex
• Restlessness, irritability, or excessive crying
• Feelings of guilt, worthlessness, helplessness, hopelessness, pessimism
• Sleeping too much or too little, early-morning waking
• Appetite and/or weight loss or overeating and weight gain
• Decreased energy, fatigue, feeling "slowed down"
• Thoughts of death or suicide, or suicide attempts
• Difficulty concentrating, remembering, or making decisions
• Persistent physical symptoms that do not respond to treatment, such as headaches, digestive disorders, and chronic pain

 I feel compelled to add that mental illnesses/disorders were not accurately diagnosed in previous generations. Topics like depression, bipolar disorder, mania... are just now beginning to let us in their world. For all you know, there may be a really long history of bipolar disorder in your family and not even know it...

In my case, my mother was diagnosed with manic depression back in her 30s but has never been medicated. I really believe that is the root of all evil, so to speak.
My mother has suffered her whole life with communication issues, depression, mood swings, not thinking clearly, and just not making sense sometimes. Now at 75, we could possibly blame it on the combination of her disorder and a possible beginning stage of dementia or at the best case scenario, old age.

Why am I talking about this? I have not been diagnosed and I am terrified of going to a shrink. Like the good Hispanic I am, I do not go to the doctor unless I am seriously ill... Depression is seen and treated as a sign of weakness in my culture and even though I am much of a loner and a hermit and do not really care what people think, I am my own worse enemy.


Mental disorders are very hard to diagnose and treat... It could be a learned behavior coming from my alcoholic household where my manic depressive mother resided?
Whichever way, I find myself meeting a lot of the signs the article described. I have loving people who I know care but I do not let in my world.

There are a lot of things to be thankful for but feeling depressed is not a feeling you can control. It will not let you eat, sleep, talk to your loved ones, work, study, drive, or hug your children. It will make you question the meaning of life and the reasons for you being alive...

Thank you for reading and buenas noches,

Wen

Waning Moon

Hello everyone!

Working according to the phases of the moon can help you bring order to your magic. The waning is when the Moon is "shrinking" or "fading" from full to new Moon. This is a good time to work with waning, repelling, reversing, banishing and getting rid of anything you do not like in your life.

Some workers seem to think some spells can only be done at a certain time, day and phase of the Moon. I like to work a little different: after all, you can make spiritual work as complicated as you want it. You can stress yourself out with getting everything perfect down to the minute you're supposed to start your work, and then your dog barks, the baby cries, your neighbor rings the door bell, your dinner decides to come back and take revenge on you... We're the ones invoking the magic and after all, we are human.

 Now, because I have learned the hard way and have encountered many of the obstacles previously mentioned, I like working a little different. Let's say I want to work on my money situation but the moon is waning. Well, instead of working to gain money, I will work on getting rid of poverty.  Same goes for love and protection.

Happy waning Moon working!

Thank you for reading and buenas noches,

~Wen

One Year Since He's Been Gone... Where Has Time Gone?

Hello everyone,

Today was a hard day for me: my mentor, friend, and father figure passed away exactly one year ago and I am still having a hard time coping with it all.

• I miss his Chinese food requests on Saturdays, talking about family recipes, seeing him watching football and him complaining about me not eating spicy food.
• I miss the sweat on his bald spot when he had one jalapeño too many.
• I miss his tallness and him laughing at me when I had to grab the safety ladder to bring something down from one of the top shelves.
• I miss him holding my hand and giving me "the look" when he was trying to make a point.
• I miss him teaching my kid everyday things and telling him it was ok for him to call him grandpa.
• I miss him riding around in his scooter and coming back with an ice cream cone he was not supposed to have...
• I miss his blue eyes and the truth they emanated.
• I miss his smile and his hugs.
• I miss his Jovan Musk and his talks about smelling good.
• I miss his love for instrumental music and listening to flute music in the store. 
• I miss his simple, yet effective solutions for everything.

...I miss many more things but I think what I miss the most are his long and heartfelt talks. He definitely had an incredible sense of humor and would often joke even about the darkest topics... I think that made him unique.
If Heaven had a phone, I would definitely be calling and asking to speak to the Grand Poo-Bah, a.k.a. Mr. Bill Guy. He was the best cheerleader I have ever had.

He touched my family's lives in more ways than he could have ever known and I truly wish I had more time with him. He knew he was loved and I will always cherish the last long conversation we had: one of the things we discussed was how I would be truly blessed if I was to find a man half as good, caring and honest as him... He told me I needed to aim higher and find someone half as motivated as I am. If I was to find that, I would be ok. 

Your Wennie still misses ya, Señor Bill. Have fun cooking and fishing in Heaven!

Thank you for reading and buenas noches.

Lucky Mojo Hoodoo Rootwork Hour: Jinx Breaking with Candelo Kimbisa - 3/01/2015

Hello everyone!

This is another post to talk to you about something related to Lucky Mojo.

If you have yet to tune in to their show, The Lucky Mojo Hoodoo Rootwork Hour you need to drop everything you're doing and go right ahead! They have an insane amount of information in every show and they have archives saved that you can download and listen to it in your personal device.

Ms. Catherine Yronwood, Conjure Man Ali and Candelo Kimbisa

This Sunday their special guest will be Candelo Kimbisa from The Association of Independent Readers and Rootworkers, (AIRR) and they will be talking about jinx-breaking. You can tune in to the show by clicking here.

Like a particular worker from The Association of Independent Readers and Rootworkers? Keep an eye out because s/he just may be a host on the show and you may get picked for a free reading consultation and rootwork prescription.


Thank you for reading!

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Readings by Wen Facebook Page

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Thank you for reading and buenas noches.

Closer to the Finish Line...

Hello everyone!

If you read my previous blog on student stress, you already know I am on my last stretch to graduation. It has been an uphill struggle since I am a single mom and I have two jobs. I am also a Notary Public and translate documents on the side... It seems like there are not enough hours in the day, especially to spend with my son.

With that being said, I can tell you that things are getting harder every day. The pressure I have on my shoulders is huge and not having a partner who is physically with me does not make things any easier. If you find yourself in this situation, I can tell you to not look at how much you have left but how far you have come... That works for me most days.
In addition, someone said something to me that I still remember every day: "Keep your chin up and your heart soft".

Thank you for reading and buenas noches.